This is the Toy that my BABY LOVE bought for me!!!(the one mentioned in one of my blog entries)


My Baby is the BEST!!!!
NO ONE can say otherwise!!
She is Awesome!!!( i think i've said this a thousand times!)

WOOOOOOOOOHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!

:3







GoSh Darnit!! i NEED to sleep now...

bye bye

FUCK YOUR LABELS!!! EL SenSacion is PISSED!!

¬ There's been a lot of 'drama' and bitching going on at work and it fuckin ruins the mood and spirit of working in Crumpler. It's all because of One Fuckin Idiot and his 'Plastic' Existence! Fuckin PUSSY talks shit behind people's back but puts up a front in front of us. Imagine that! Saying bad stuff about your own friends?? FUCK YOU!!!

Nobody dares to say anything but i'm biding my time.. I just shut my mouth cos i need the damn money for my stupid medical..

PUSH me too hard and i'll SNAP your Head off! Fuckin Pathetic Pussy!

I fuckin treat you as a good friend and you do this shit!
The world doesn't revolve around YOU my friend! Remove those rose tinted glasses and you'll see the REAL world.

Rich and Spoilt people are the God Darn BANE of my existence! They couldn't give two shits about the people who are less fortunate than them.

>>>Now that i've Vented my frustration at this Asshole out, here's some pics of the good moments at work<<<

*Crumpler Buddies!!


*Work is Fun with these 2 around!!


*Josh and Jas - - - BANDITOS!!!


*Working here is driving me INSANE!!!


*Losing my Mind and Losing Control

* Please forgive me for this short and muddled entry. I'm too damn sleepy!! :P


~LAst Night was Awesome!!

SArina's classmates had a BBQ at East Coast and i came down after work to join them. It was so damn fun!

I bought a sunflower and surprised my baby when i arrived :)

Though it was the first time i was meeting most of them, they warmed up to me quickly and i felt like i was part of the class.

Good Food, Good Friends and Laughter by the Bucket Loads :D


PS* Drunk people say and do the funniest things :D

We spent the night at the beach and my baby came over to my place to take a nap, bathe and then head home

To be honest, i felt really jealous cos i miss being in school and i'll have to wait till next year to have a chance to be in one.. Fingers crossed

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~ On to the subject of my medical, i was told that i had to go for an intensive sleep study in september which is gonna cost me 1000 smackers!!

There is no way that i can afford to get that kind of money in such a short frame of time and so i'm left with no choice but to cancel it :(

It really sucks when you ain't well to do

Guess i shouldn't complain to much.....

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Gosh!! I really miss Sarina so damn much even though i just spent a whole night and a day with her! i love this girl too much!!

She makes me go Wheeeeeee!!!


Love ya!!! Love ya!!!


....okie.. time to sleep :P

6th months Together is the start of Now and Forever

Today marks the 6th month of my relationship with sarina and i wanna say that i'm really glad that i met her and fell in love with her :D

My baby girl is the BEST thing in my life and i really do not want to spend my life with anyone else. She is the Bright Star that shines the way for me on my Blackest nights and the wind in my sails that pushes me forward when the waters get rough. 6 months has given us plenty of memories both GOOD AND BAD but i treasure every single one of them.

Life is too short and i strongly believe that we should treasure every good thing that comes our way and not take it for granted. If you set your heart on something, do all you can to get it and when you do, make sure that you fight to keep it.

Moments,Memories,Friends and Faces make this life worth living


I've found my Princess and i'll fight to make sure that this story has a Good Ending to it


*To my baby girl,

THank you for everything and i want you to fight hard by my side through it all

I love you my sweetheart. You are the sweetest thing and you make me happy and proud to call you my girl

Here's to the Rest of my life with you :D

MUUUUUUUUUUUUACKS!!!!!!

:3

Thoughts for today..

*Been smelling stale blood and tasting it in the back of my throat since last night and i felt like vomiting :(

*It's really sucky to not be able to buy food and all i can do is to ignore the hunger pangs

*I am damn uncomfortable when i get hugged by my female colleague and i feel guilty even though i didn't do anything or want that hug


The rest is all Blah Blah Blah...


ANYWAY.....

** I miss my Awesome Baby Girl**
**This one's for you sweetheart**



RISE AGAINST -SWING LIFE AWAY


~Am I loud and clear or am I breaking up?
Am I still your charm or am I just bad luck?
Are we getting closer or we just getting more lost?
I'll show you mine if you show me yours first
Let's compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse
Let's unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

[Chorus]
We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave 'til the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand

I've been here so long I think that it's time to move
The winter's so cold summer's over too soon
Let's pack our bags and settle down where palm trees grow
I've got some friends some that I hardly know
But we've had some times I wouldn't trade for the world
We chase these days down with talks of the places that we will go

[Chorus]
We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave 'til the end
I won't cross these streets until you hold my hand
Until you hold my hand

Ill show you mine if you show me yours first
Lets compare scars I'll tell you whose is worse
Lets unwrite these pages and replace them with our own words

We live on front porches and swing life away
We get by just fine here on minimum wage
If love is a labor I'll slave till the end
I wont cross these streets until you hold my hand~



*No matter how hard things get, you can always count on me loving you with all my heart and to be there for you. You make me Proud to call you my girl and i don't want any other

You are Wonderful and Amazing and every moment with you is a precious gift

The flame in my heart for you will never die..

..unless you're the one who extinguishes it


Take my hand and we'll face this cruel world together
Don't be afraid
Be Strong(er)
I'm always here for you

I love you Sarina


Love you so damn much...

I bled for you....

This one's for B.P


What a day..


Finger pointed in my direction..Your words hitting me harder than a punch..

Pushing me into a corner.. where Shadows are Security..

The pain was too much to bear and i couldn't keep it bottled in so i ran into the storeroom and screamed my lungs out into my hoodie..

I guess that i did it too hard and it tore the surgical wounds.. Stupid me!

There was a little blood at first and i thought everything was ok but when i got home, the blood ran freely..

like wine.. only sweeter..


Maybe i need to bleed a little to show you how much this means... the puppy that's kicked away, only to return obediently

MAybe i should stop being Mr Nice..
But you know i can't cos it's in my soul to be someone good...


~Changes for the Better... hope in my heart






*Don't blame yourself.. I needed to let it out..








.. i FREAKIN miss my Baby Girl. .

HoogieBoogie!

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I feel shitty


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Bummer!

My baby stopped by to surprise me with lunch yesterday :D

It was really good to see her and we went to get Asal a gift for her b'day from toys r us.

She bought me a hotdog bun and orange juice!! :D

My baby is awesome lah! Even the shortest time spent together means a LOT to me :)

I love my baby to bits

*here's a song that reminds me of my fight against my 'leech'
It's by the band DOPE and it's called ANOTHER DAY


~~Another day goes by
And I don’t understand or know the reasons why
I’m looking for a change in life
But another day goes by

Here we go again

It’s today
I wish it was tomorrow though I think I’d say
Ya know I think it feels just like yesterday
So lately I’ve been looking for a change
But the more things change
The more they seem to stay the same
Here we go again

Another day goes by
And I don’t understand or know the reasons why
I’m looking for a change in life
But another day goes by

Here we go again

It’s a new day
It’s almost like tomorrow never came
Same old thing same old game different name
And every day I sing the same old song
And today I don’t feel like waking up
But the show must go on and on and on

Another day goes by
And I don’t understand and I don’t pretend to try
I wanna change my life
But another day goes by

Just when I get it right another day goes by

Here we go again

If I could change it or rearrange it
Tomorrow could be all right

So many days gone by
I still don’t understand but now I realize
I’m gonna change my life that’s right
While the days go by
I’m gonna change my life that’s right
While the days go by
I wanna change my life
But another day goes by

It’s just another day~~





I won't lose hope and i won't give up. I won't let this beat me and i won't fall.

Jason Sensation

Could i have this dance forever?

WORLD!!


I wanna tell you all how proud i am of my baby girl. The things she does for me and the positive changes she is making in her life makes me a helluva PROUD of her.
Some people may have gotten the wrong impression of her but i assure you guys/girls that Sarina means well.

She does have her 'moments' but so do we all and it's only human nature. Sometimes it's really hard but at the end of the day, all the bad things are pushed aside and only the good ones remain.
Forgiving and Forgetting is key in a relationship and so is Open Communication. Without them, the relationship is bound to hit a rut. Sarina is doing well in dealing with things in a more positive light and i really appreciate all that from the bottom of my heart.

She makes me really happy and the wonderful things she does always makes me smile. Not a day goes by without me thinking of her beautiful smile and those big brown eyes :D


*Darling,

Thank you for your true,honest love and for being my best friend and the person i can trust the most. You are the light in my life and the brightest burning star in the sky. We are all flawed but in my eyes, you are PERFECT

I love you with all my heart and soul. You are my Angel!

You are AWESOME POSSUM. You are Everything to me :D

*Quiero estar contigo para siempre--(i want to be with you forever)

Te quiero con todo mi corazón--(i love you with all my heart)


:3

My dear friends Prim and Suee stopped by at the store to surprise me yesterday. It was reall good to see them and the dearies bought me food and drinks.

*So Damn Sweet and Thoughtful lah!! hehehe

I went for my break with them and we headed to Toys R Us. We had lots of fun playing with the toys and suee kept giggling when i sang along to the nursery rhymes.

OOOOh!!! I spotted lots of monkey toys!! hehehe

The best part was when the 3 of us played with a voice changing device! Super Cool!!


The fun was short lived cos i had to return to work

Can't wait to see them soon.. EP LAunch!




EL SenSacion OUT!!

Tears, Plastic People, Bats and Toys in a Box..

Gosh! It's been a while since i've touched my computer.

Lots of things have happened in this few days, both Good and Bad...


*First up was the medical i went for on Monday for my post op review. I had my surgery two weeks before the day and have felt no improvement whatsoever. The doc told me that the surgery did not help and that i would have to go for more check ups and treatments. I was broken.. i mean, the surgery cost $700+ and it was all for nothing!
It really hurts cos i've put so much of hope on various treatments but all to no avail.. The only thing that came out of it all were tears and heartache..

This Fatigue is like a parasite that eats away at you. It torments and it drives you to the edge of madness. Some people don't understand how it feels to feel trapped and helpless...


**A certain someone at work has been bitching and complaining over the smallest things. It's really stupid and i think that some of the stuff said about me is unfair. I'm not gonna mention the name but if that person happens to read this then THAT person will know who it's about. TAke for example my surgery. I was given seven days of mc and yet i only took 5 out of it because i couldn't afford to lose money. The very next time i took an mc was because i had a medical in the afternoon last monday. Apparently to a certain someone, it's a BIG HOO HAH! That person thinks that i'm gonna take mc's consistently! You go around bitching to your friends in other Crumpler stores.

SERIOUSLY!! C'mon!! You think i fuckin take it for fun? This is not the only thing that pisses me off. You know, i'm so damn close to telling you off in your face about how much of a reality check you need but i keep my mouth shut out of respect. My Friend, take time to put yourself in my shoes. Don't be a goddamn coward and bitch behind peoples back
Ps*Don't think that someone told me this stuff cos i observe and find out stuff on my own.

Scrapping whatever money i have for my bills to the point of skipping meals etc. It's all damn sacrifice! You're born with a silver spoon in your mouth and you don't have to worry about lots of shit so PLEASE.. from a friend to another.. have more heart and be more down to earth. Do it through action and not just by words.


***My sweetheart surprised me at work yesterday and we took a walk to the toy section in taka cos i was looking for a toy that i really wanted(CARNAGE AND SPIDEY)
I saw two boxes of them a few days back but when we went there, i couldn't find them. I was really sad but i told myself that i would find it elsewhere

Bought Sushi for my Baby cos she was craving for it. Even though i didn't have enough for my ownself, i was happy to see the beautiful smile on her beautiful face :D

I LOVE HER!!!


****My baby and i went to Lido to watch THE DARK NIGHT and HOT DAMN!!! IT WAS MIND BLOWINGLY AWESOME!!!!

As a comic fan since young, i've always been fascinated by BAtman(Don't worry, you're still my fav VENOM) and The Joker has always been my Favourite villian. Heath Ledger(R.I.P) played him to perfection and perhaps even took The Joker to the next level. He was really good! I mean, this is the first time i've been afraid of a villian in a movie. SICK..TWISTED..SCARY

Damn...


Baby and myself headed to far east for lunch and while we ate, i told her about the shit at work, my stress from the fatigue and how damn much i wanted things to get better. .

After we ate, we were walking to the toy store when she stopped me and told me that she had a surprise for me. She handed me a paper bag with a box and a letter inside. I read the letter and the hint inside it told me what was inside the box. .

It was The Carnage and Spidey toy that i had wanted and i was so freakin touched that i cried and hugged her tight. It really meant alot to me moreso because of all the shit that's been bothering me. I couldn't stop hugging and thanking her. It was a wonderful surprise and right there and then, i felt like my gift was worth more than anything in the stores. It was THAT SPECIAL :D


Sarina is amazing. She may have her 'silly' moments but i don't take the bad things to heart cos we are all human. What's important is that she knows her mistakes and she sincerely apologizes for them. It's our 6th month of being together next tuesday(the 12th) and i look back and smile at the tought of how far we've come.

From the strange way we met, to wanting to be good friends but ending up falling in love to the moments we have shared both good and bad. She's wonderful and she's my pillar of strength when my worries get the best of me. I don't ever want to lose her.
One life to live and i choose to spend it with her in happiness and good health


Sarina Baby, I LOVE YOU WITH ALL MY HEART AND SOUL. Thank You for Being Awesome Possum!!!


:3

Jason Sensation