A new Dawn or an endless Dusk??

This is it.. The wait is finally over..

Tonight is the night i get my CPAP for my fatigue syndrome and i pray so hard that it works. two and a half years with this shit is enough. I don't want anymore pain, tears and tiredness..

My fingers are crossed so tight and i have a prayer in my heart that it works. This fatigue has taken so much away from me and it has to end. I wanna go back to the old energetic energizer bunny that i was. the REAL Jason Sensation! No more the tired zombie that struggled through NS and work with it..

So yeah! this could be my last blog entry with my fatigue problem. I'm excited, i'm nervous, i'm scared but most of all, i'm hopeful..


I'll let you guys know how it goes... wish me luck aye :D

Mosh! MoSH!! MOSH!!! SArii Sweets's First VL show

Saturday was an absolute BLAST!!!

After almost a month of being away, it was so damn good to see VL and the VLC again. Brought SArii Sweets along for it and was really glad that everyone warmed up to her. She was a little shy at first but by the end of the day, she was just like a part of us :D

~ Met up with sarii at around 3 and we headed off to OUtram to get a prezzie for her friend Feefa. She tried her hand at PAtapon and Winning Eleven on my PSp and we had a good laugh :D

We then headed over to Breko to meet up with the gang and was damn happy to see them. Introductions were made,hugs and handshakes exchanged and then it was down to serious business.....

Our PreShow Ritual.....

The BUBBLES song!!

Oh Ramon! Thanks for wanting to put cigarette ash in my beer! :P hahaha


~Sarii and myself started joking around with Moses. That Baller and Sarii conspired to stuff Fries and his Burger into my mouth and he did!!! Thanks Guys!!


~Went up to get ready for the show at around 7

I was freakin pumped up and so ready to mosh!! After being outta the pit for so damn long,(The last time was Deafcon 9), I was ready for some fun!

~ While Waiting for VL to set up, i bumped into Hanis, my old classmate and lead singer for the band *Dear! Who am i?, jumped on him and accidentally elbowed him in the mouth! Way To GO EL SenSacion!!


VL's Set was awesome!!! Moses,Mike,FAi and myself were moshing and screaming our lungs out. The VLC were behind us singing every word and the whole feel of it was Fuckin A!! If i'm not mistaken, it was Mike who moshed and knocked into ALvin and it was damn funny! The Set was Energetic and the showmanship keeps getting better all the time. My shoes flew off like 3 times while moshing and that exposed my gay SpongeBob socks! Sheeesh!!The BEst part came when Ramon dedicated Memories Shaded Black and Red to Sarii and myself :D The VLC faced the both of us and cheered. Sarii Sweets turned and kissed me. I held her tight and sang along to the song. Goodbye was So Damn Good! The intro of it plus the rap was really awesome and proves my point that VL ain't a one trick pony! Fantastic JOb guys :D


¬After the show, i sent SArii to Hougang station nd it was really hard to say goodbye cos whenever we leave, it feels like a part of me is ripped away. i just love that girl so much and she's simply awesome. After kissing and watching her leave, I then met up with the guys at the Esplanade to watch Ramon's bro, Steve propose to his girlfriend. It was damn sweet!! We then had dinner at Makansutra. Ramon cracked us up when he used Mike's Umbrella to hit himself.( you press a button on it and the top part extends ) hard to explain but it was damn funny.. Trust Mike to have Gay shit in his Bag


It was A Great end to an even Greater Day. I can't wait for the next show :D


Here are some pics and stuff...


Sarii Sweets and myself before the show


The Sensation, Sarii and Moses


Getting my face stuffed by moses


Moses Telling us how BIG IAn's Weiner Really is..


Moses And IAn Getting IT ON!!


Aye Aye


ONAMI and RAMONA - My Secret Admirers


Hot Sweaty GAy Boys! (All thanks to Mike's Shirt)


Kopitiam Kakis!


We Are so DArn Cooooote!!



After Moshing Souveniers






CAn't wait for the next Show!!!

Boy Oh Boy! What a Day!

Finally got my hands on Neil Gaiman's AMERICAN GODS!! Woohooo!! Been waiting to read it for a damn loooooong time..





Met SArii Sweets at around 12 and we went to the library at Bugis to get my book. *Had an intimate moment with the glass door thanks to sarii!!! hahahaha

I'm so gonna get her back for it!! :D

My Poor dear was really down and i felt so sad to see her that way. She had been feeling stressed out from her schoolwork and things at home and she was not herself that day. . . She is a wonderful girl and it hurts to see her looking so sad and tired.. can't wait for her to have fun this saturday and take her mind Off things. She Needs some time to relax!

We said our goodbyes at Senkang and she was off to meet her little 9 year old cuzzie Shasha.

Oh! Had $4 deducted from my ezlink card cos i 'overstayed' in the station!

Daylight Robbery lah!!!


~ Got a Pleasant surprise when i saw Suee as i exited the train. Was really happy to see her but couldn't stay to talk. I freakin miss the WHOLE VLC like hell!! Been a month plus since i've seen them and i can't wait to see them again this saturday!!


Bought some bananas to eat before i got home!



mmmmmmm...bananas




Then!! i burned my hands 4 times!!

1 one the iron, one on a pot of boiling water, spilling hot tea on my hand and then holding the hot cup.. Gosh! Not Fun Lah!! Ouchies!!




Ok then, gonna go eat my bananas now..

chomp! chomp!

For Your Broken Heart - Dedicated to HAfiz

I saw your girl the other day and in her hand she held the hand of another. Caught up in bliss and unaware that familiar eyes were watching. My thoughts shifted to you and wondered whether i should tell you. I guess i was afraid of you being hurt but i couldn't stay quiet. How could i? I'd be ashamed to call myself your friend if i did.

And so i told you and you called to say that you had broken up a week ago. Surprise gripped you to learn how fast she had moved on. I could feel the bitterness in your voice, the acid that burned your veins and i knew how it felt.. cos that's exactly what happened to me.

It's so funny how you,her,my ex and me got together in school, were in the same class and were close friends. I remember the time when your's mistook my care for love and cut her wrists. How people hated me even though i did no wrong.. Then you came along, took her into your arms and gave her happiness. The times the four of us shared, the beach and all. i will miss them just as much as you. Can't believe the similarity of our situations man. They took for granted the love of a good heart and left for a God Damn MAt..

Fuck em all! USeless Wallet Stealing, Cheap Beer Drinking, Underage Girl Impregnating,Good for Absolutely NOTHING Fuckers!! Fuck YOu! Fuck You!


I won't go on cos i don't want your heart to bleed further from reminiscing the memories once cherished.. but now shattered..

Just know that you've a Brother here who cares and will always lend you his shoulder to cry on..




My Heart aches for you

Jason Thomas

Sometimes, it gets really frustrating when you try your best to instill a little positivity in a person you care so much about. It can be a friend, a brother or something more but no matter who it is, the hurt is there when they refuse to be receptive.

You do your best to give them hope and you speak words of encouragement but it turns out to be in vain but no matter how frustrated and hurt you feel, you just calm yourself and try and try again.

When all you want is the Best for them.. Isn't that a sign of care or love?

It takes time and a lot of patience on your part but don't give up. Cos one day, they'll realize how much you care for them and appreciate you for that. If they don't well, a day will come when they will look back and realize their mistake. Just hope that it won't be too late by then...




*Please believe in Yourself

This ones for VL

I've been putting this particular post aside for quite some time and now it's finally time for the Sensation to deliver..

This One's about a group of brothers whom i've gotten to know and GROW with. A bunch of guys whom i've shared my sorrow and joys with and vice versa. A crazy gang of friends whom i Love to the Death.

They are none other than the BEST local band in Singapore... DOLLTRASH!!!

***eh? a bit wrong leh! Checks my script***


Sorry about that folks, i mixed it up.. DOLLTRASh is NOT the BEST local band. They are in fact ( the name says it all ) :D



Anyway, back to the subject matter, i'm sure you guys know who i'm talking about by now. if you don't, you'd better get back under the rock you've been under.


It's VALENTINES LETTER (cue Ramon Screaming this part)


~~The seeds of this friendship were planted when Dess (the bassist and fellow camp mate in the NAvy) and i exchanged friendly banter and it so happened that while we were in the mess one day. We were chatting about music and he offered me his ipod and told me to listen to his band. My reaction after i heard the songs? * Dude? Are you damn sure this is a LOCAL band? It was THAT GOOD! what's more, the songs were just rough demos. I HAD to hear more. Dess invited me to one of his bands jam sessions the following day and i kept my word and went.

He thought that i was gonna back out at the last minute at all and he was pleasantly surprised when i showed up. The first person from the band i met after Dess was Richard(former lead guitarist)and then met up with the rest of them. Ian(rhythm guitarist and smelly guy), BJ the drummer and last but not least, the Man himself, The Master of the Dragon Kick, The one and only Ramon 'Nevasoba' Cedillo. I sat back and they started. For the hour plus that i was with them, i was completely blown( not in THAT sense) The music was Catchy and the lyrics were Great. They didn't seem like a tight band so it kinda surprised me that their music belied that notion. After the Jam session, we hung outside the jam studio (Boons... Memories!!) hahaha. The bunch of us started chatting and getting to know each other better and to believe that RAmon had thought i was some MAT! hahaha. Oh! Ian has always been the whipping boy of the band and i made a joke about getting him a six pack... of yakult.. The guys asked for my opinion on the band and i told them the truth. they were really good and i saw things going far for them. I've seen other local bands and They Couldn't hold a candle to VL.

That night, new friendships were bonded and i was given the honour of witnessing the 'DRAGON KICK' and the forgotten 'CROCODILE SLICE'. GOD! i laughed so hard and i really needed it cos it was barely a few weeks back that my ex cheated on me and broke my heart. I found new energy in this group of friends and i owe them for it.


~~ I attended more of their jam sessions and helped to take some photographs for them.

*Ramon.. Guys, look at his spongebob socks when he takes the picture! hahaha

The first show i went to was at DXO (Rock On i think). I took the videos for them and even though i was behind the cam the whole time, i enjoyed myself. Oh! i was introduced to the rest of their friends and thus, the Famous VLC was born

Suee(awesome friend), PRim(great photographer and fun to talk to), Fai(MAs Selamat's Twin) FAz(fellow ninja in a hoodie), NAomi(band manager and owes me gummy bears for the pack of cigs!!) Wan (The MAjor..miss him!!) Kai(never say die), Zim ( CS buddy! See BAy Hok Ah!) Shaun (Friendly ass grabber) Moses (Ramon's bro and a great guy to hang with), Michael,Shakina,Zul and the list goes on and on.. Lost count of the number of VLC lah.



THE FAMOUS VLC



~Gigs

Alternation at DXO.. the day i got piss drunk at dess's place and broke down from heartache. Ramon and the guys were there to comfort me and keep me in check. By the time they started playing, i didn't know where i was. Later on, i heard that i was moshing like a lunatic and fell all over the place. After their set, ramon helped me out of the place. i remember him asking me whether i was alright and the next thing i knew, i fell FLAT on my face and suffered a gash beside my right eye. Oh! Alex was there too and he took care of me along with the rest. He was the one who followed me back in when another band played and saw me throw myself at an amplifier. gosh!


~Speaking of Gigs, Deafcon 9 was the BEST by far! It was awesome but the joy was bittersweet cos it was Richard's last performance and tears were shed. VL played an amazing set and the VLC moshed and had a superb time. Damn... feel like moshing again. The trill and insanity of it is simply exhilarating! Oh! Fullflight!! The first time i moshed WITH Ramon and IAn. I sprained my ankle but carried on moshing despite the pain and the boys in November Iris thought i was Awesome for that! hahaha.. Speaking of which, haven't heard from them in a long time. Hmmm.. After fullflight, the boys and myself went down to rouge for a few drinks and to watch a live band. Moshed to the sounds of NIrvana and skanked(ska Dance) with Dess and Ramon! Woohoooo!



~~Recordings

NTU Night boys!!! What a Night!! Funny as shit!

-Dess and me with our cab driver problems(TWICE) - Sparked off the song *What's up with the CAb? Baby! Baby! What's Up?

-Dealing with technical Problems and Shit

-Ramon and myself running around the camp looking for a 7/11


-Richard, Ramon and myself, going all the way to jurong west late at night to get cup noodles.

-JAc Drawing us a map of how to get to canteen.

-Walking in the Heavy rain towards it and getting the map wet

-Having a breakfast of instant noodles at 5/6am in the canteen

-Going back to camp after a sleepless night

PRICELESS!!!








~ Problems..

everyone has them and the boys and myself have been there for each other when we needed. Me, alternation, Dess, at his place late at night, Ramon, after celebrating Ian's birthday etc. Things that happened after Deafcon 9. i won't say much cos it's all personal and they trust me.Sometimes, you don't have to say much when all you need to give is a warm embrace and words of encouragement. After all, VLC means ONE BLOOD. I owe a BIG thank you to VL and people like Suee,Prim,moses and the rest for being there for me. Muchos Gracias!


~Booze

Hahaha.. being in a band and hanging with one definitely involves drinking copious amounts of alcohol. Drinking Heineken and Corona's at Breko and then singing on the streets, Ramon pulling his pants down and running on the road, me jumping on some dude's car, dess flinging his pair of jeans around. Gosh!! Oh! WE have a little VLC tradition of singing West HAm's "I'm Forever Blowing Bubbles" Song., Don't ask why! hahaha.. Damn! if you guys knew the things we did when we were drunk, you'd laugh your asses off. anw, Thanks to a certain episode where both Ramon and i got pissed drunk (i somersaulted over a potted plant and puked all over the place).. btw RAmon, don't forget that it's our evil twin brothers who were drunk and ruined things. We were both watching alien vs predator 2 ah! hahaha

Anyways, i'm laying off hard liquor. Just beers and wine for me! Oh! and fruit juiceeee!!!





FUn! Fun! FuN!

~Speaking of IAn's birthday, Ramon and myself went all over marina square to look for a prezzie for him. WE ended up in the ladies section of TopShop and decided to get him a pair of panties. It was Absolutely Hilarious! Just imagine two guys going nuts about choosing the design of panty! The salesgirls looked horrified

*JAson - Dude! let's get the wonderwoman print!

*Ramon - No Balls! We'll get Tweety Bird! More Cute!

We needed a marker to write our birthday wishes and i just so happened to have my eyeliner with me! Subconciously, i told RAmon i had it out loud and the lady at the cashier counter gave us a weird look. .. Hahaha.. Memories!!!


Oh guys! We'll never ever forget the time i mistook some dude for BJ and jumped on him in the train station. That was some funny shit!! Gosh! Thank God that he didn't punch me! Holy Crud! We were all in stitches!!






~~VL and the future

Things are looking really good for Valentines Letter. They are lined up for some good gigs and like i predicted( i TOLD you Dess!!! hahaha) 2008 will be the start of VL's rise to fame. As a band, i've watched them grow both musically and personally (NO IAn!! Not the size of your weiner). There was a point where things almost fell apart but the boys are back on track and in focus. Despite Richard's departure, VL went from strength to strength and the new lead guitarist Alvin took little time in filling up his shoes. I applaud your effort bro :D Dess, your showmanship and confidence has grown tremendously! Keep it up bro! Ian, you're still smelly and you're still MAlaysian so No Improvement! hahaha.. BJ, the way you handle those sticks turns me on man! MArc Anthony, erm, i mean Ramon, what can i say man.. We've been through some stuff together and it makes me appreciate the friendship we have.




Guys, if you are reading this, i wanna tell you that i'm Honestly PROUD of how far you guys have come. 7 months have passed since that first meeting and you guys have made a hell lot of positive changes. Picking yourself up from bad gigs and harsh critics (DOLLTRASH WHO???) to reinventing the wheel with your showmanship(reggae Goodbye - GAyboy! Gayboy!). . This friendship is built for life and you can be sure that EL SenSacion has got your backs. The Whole VLC are behind you and will be there at every gig. Even if the crowd is against you and even if we are outnumbered, know that we will Sing the Loudest and Rock the Hardest for you Guys. Never forget how you guys started out and get over your heads. You guys are a heck lot better than any band in Singapore and i know that for a fact. You have my Support and Blessings.
Continue to grow and Shine. Only you can decide whether Valentines Letter MAkes it or Breaks it.


The Sensation Loves Ya


Here's a little trip down VL history



At first, they weren't known as Valentines Letter.. They were known as. . .





YES! They were known as the Backstreet boys and they set the hearts of teenage girls (and Boys) on Fire cos they *want it that way*


~Well, these teenage girls(and boys) broke their hearts and so with angst in their veins, they became VAlentines Letter (Dess, i'm skipping out SweetPunkRevenge cos i don't want you to 'Suffocate')





Hahaha! the 'SpongeBob' Socks Photo


Fullflight!!


Credits to Smunk

Here's there FAMOUS VLC!!

God Bless Boys :D


The Sensation

Say Cheese and Hello!

I'm in a dire need of a new phone lah!

My M600i has served me well but it's on it's last legs. I am so undecided on whether to get the iphone $650 or the nokia n95 8gb $850

I'm more partial to the n95 cos i need a phone that can take good pictures and videos and the iphone really sucks when it comes to that function. music and storage wise, the iphone is a nose ahead only cos it has lotsa bugs.

Dunno lah! have to save up my money then i'll decide..

Work Sucks.... I Know..

So it's been 3 weeks since i've started working in Gio and i must say that i don't really enjoy myself there. Firstly, my stupid fatigue problem makes it really hard and even more so because i end work at midnight sometimes and have to get up by 6 plus the next day. Imagine doing that for days in a row. I honestly don't mean to sound like a whiney brat but it is honestly taking a toll on my body and mind. Those who know about my problem can understand my situation and i thank them for it.


Fatigue aside, i don't really enjoy working there cos it's not 'interactive' enough. I like stuff that engages you and folding clothes and serving grumpy people ain't exactly my idea of 'interactive'. Take for example my attachment at Royal Sporting House, when my manager wasn't around, we'd play soccer and golf in the store, climb the 15 foot shelves without a ladder etc. Now THAT is fun at work. Wouldn't you rather work in a place where it's enjoyable and where you can truly say you enjoy working in?


Anyway, it's not to say that Gio is dull. I've made many friends and won over people with my hard work. Engaging customers in friendly banter and making friends from all over the world. Awesome!! I've had my hand shaken thrice in a day from tourists! gives you a FEEL GOOD kinda vibe lah! Ive gotten little presents too.. cool lah! hahaha

Oh! There are even little kids who come up to me and play hide and seek or pick up our merchandise and pass it to me. They are so FREAKIN cute lah!!

So Yeah! Work has it's ups and Downs and i honestly hope that this fatigue goes away and i'll be truly able to show everyone the REAL JASON SENSATION..

Fingers Crossed and a Prayer in my Heart






JAson Sensation

Gosh! It's been a while since i've updated my blog. Been so damn busy with work and i feel so drained cos of the Damn Fatigue. Working 7 days straight with it is NO JOKE.

I wish that it would get out of my Life. It's like a leech, a parasite, poison..

Sucking the life out of you and leaving you a shell..


To my Fatigue... Here's a BIG Thank you for Nothing and an Even Bigger F you!




Well, i hope you guys enjoy my new posts..




EL SenSacion Out...