The End of a Beautiful Getaway and back to a world of despair...

3 days and 2 nights..

So much love and joy in that short space of time. Being away from everyone and with my baby in my arms. It was wonderful and it felt so good. The wonderful warmth my baby brings to my soul makes all the pain go away.

She is my Angel and she watches over..




3 days of laughter,hugs,kisses and more. Smiling so hard when she does the cute little things she does. She's my Baby :D
She loves me dearly and i thank her for being the Best for me. She's Awesome

2 nights spent in each others arms. Dancing,Drinking and making more smiles

Humming to a tune together.. La La La.. :)

When weariness crept into our bones, we slept.. Our bodies snug close together





Alas 3 days and 2 nights went past so fast.. It was hard to leave
I wanted to spend more time in my baby's arms but i have to wait.
I miss her.. I love her so much





Back home to where the walls are cold..
The person i call mother driving me insane with hurt and false accusations

I snapped.. I yelled.. I hit myself hard... I'm sorry

What can i do to make you proud? You don't see the struggle i go through. You think that i'm lazy and good for nothing. How blind and ignorant can you be?
Everything that goes wrong is somehow my fault! WHY???
You always seem to have a bone to pick with me.. Go ahead.. I've got 206.. don't wear yourself out

What's happened to you? Where has my mother gone? The woman who once held a little boy with a mess of curly hair in her arms and sang him lullabies. The mother who would take that little boy out to the zoo and smile when he giggled in joy

Where did you go?

I miss you

I look into the mirror and i see not my face in tears but that of that little boy from long ago...



Two women in my life..

My mother and the future mother of my children

My sadness and my Happiness


I want to let go of the first and put all my energy into the new.. A brand new start to life with Sarina

She's My Princess and i love her

No one has the right to deny us our love or tear us apart
Not even God..