It has been a really long time since i've sat down to update my blog and i apologize to those of you who have been kept waiting for a new post.. You know who you are :D


I hope that i don't disappoint.. Here goes


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I want to talk about the ups and downs of love. All of us who has had or have the pleasure of being in love with someone has gone through the many highs and lows of a relationship. Some people fail to understand that no relationship is perfect and think that them being with someone else is going to make things better. They cheat, they lie and they end up with heartbreak. I feel sorry for these people who have this kind of mindset.


There are of course the exceptions. One such good example is my beautiful baby girl Sarina. We've had our share of ups and downs but no matter what, we still stick together as a team. We do fight, we do have arguments and all but at the end of the day,we both know how much we love each other



* This post is dedicated to my one true love.. Sarina




~Some of you may know that i'm a fan of the tv series The Simpsons. Now, most people categorize the show as a mindless half an hour of cartoon humour but in real fact, there is so much more to the show than that. There are life lessons to be learnt from it. From the characters to the plots, the show gives us plenty to think about as human beings

*There's the dad Homer Simpson, who despite all his slow wit and perpetual stumbling,bumbling and messing up, always tries to make things right(which he fails to most of the time)Homer is crude, overweight, incompetent, clumsy, and lazy(always seen scarfing down donuts and swigging beer) however, he is also fiercely devoted to his family and often show's his caring side

*There's Marge,the mum who is always overworked and under appreciated by her family. She tries to be perfect but she can't be all the time. She's well meaning and is the voice of reason in the family

*The most popular character in the show, Bart is mischievious, rebellious and has no regard for authority. He constantly enrages everyone in the household(especially homer who'd strangle him) He bullies his sister Lisa and often does things to hurt her.Despite all this, he loves her deeply and always apologizes when he goes too far. BArt is the wild rebel who we all secretly want to be from time to time

*Lisa Simpson is the smart one in the family and like her mum,often feels unappreciated in her family. She is morally righteous and would do anything to get her views across. She does have her flaws too as she gets emotional easily

*Maggie Simpson...not much to say :P

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I'm not going to list out all the characters in the show. That would be besides the point of this post. What i wanna say is that each and every one of us can relate to all these characters. There's a Homer,Marge,Bart etc in ALL of us. We as human beings are delicate creatures with many a flaw. When we fumble up something, give in to laziness, act boorish, that's the Homer part of us. When we try to be perfect but fail, that's the little Lisa in us. When we put people beneath us or abuse the power we have, that is us being Mr Burns(Homer's evil employer at the power plant) When we have sadness inside us but put on a smile and try to cheer all those around us,That right there is us being Krusty the Klown(something i'm familiar with)

There are many issues these characters deal with which are similar to what we ourselves experience in real life. No matter how much Homer messes up and angers all those around him(especially Marge) he still tries his best to make up for it. As for Marge, despite all that Homer does to hurt or annoy her, she still loves him greatly and sticks with him no matter what happens. This shows that true love can really conquer all

Bart hurts Lisa constantly with his mischief and selfishness and lisa often ends up hating bart and cries. In the end,bart learns his mistakes and out of love for his sister,apologizes. We often hurt the people we love without realizing it but when we do realize,we have to learn how to accept the blame for the wrong we did and apologize


You see,the Simpsons really do give us stuff to think about and to learn from. Who ever said watching cartoons was bad for you...


Eat my Shorts!!

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I hope that all of you get the point i'm trying to get across in this post


*To my baby, i'm sorry for all the times i;ve fucked up and for all the times you've messed up, i forgive you

This love we share is Incredible and i don't wanna be with anyone else but you.

Never let the negativity and the bad things ruin this relationship. We both have to be strong and not let ANYTHING affect the love we have for each other. The easiest thing to do in a relationship is to walk away and give up. We're BOTH stronger than that


Sarina darling, i love you very much

Thank you for being the wonderful girl that you are and for making this monkey a very happy one. Nothing compares to your true love baby

Thank You




Jason

The End of a Beautiful Getaway and back to a world of despair...

3 days and 2 nights..

So much love and joy in that short space of time. Being away from everyone and with my baby in my arms. It was wonderful and it felt so good. The wonderful warmth my baby brings to my soul makes all the pain go away.

She is my Angel and she watches over..




3 days of laughter,hugs,kisses and more. Smiling so hard when she does the cute little things she does. She's my Baby :D
She loves me dearly and i thank her for being the Best for me. She's Awesome

2 nights spent in each others arms. Dancing,Drinking and making more smiles

Humming to a tune together.. La La La.. :)

When weariness crept into our bones, we slept.. Our bodies snug close together





Alas 3 days and 2 nights went past so fast.. It was hard to leave
I wanted to spend more time in my baby's arms but i have to wait.
I miss her.. I love her so much





Back home to where the walls are cold..
The person i call mother driving me insane with hurt and false accusations

I snapped.. I yelled.. I hit myself hard... I'm sorry

What can i do to make you proud? You don't see the struggle i go through. You think that i'm lazy and good for nothing. How blind and ignorant can you be?
Everything that goes wrong is somehow my fault! WHY???
You always seem to have a bone to pick with me.. Go ahead.. I've got 206.. don't wear yourself out

What's happened to you? Where has my mother gone? The woman who once held a little boy with a mess of curly hair in her arms and sang him lullabies. The mother who would take that little boy out to the zoo and smile when he giggled in joy

Where did you go?

I miss you

I look into the mirror and i see not my face in tears but that of that little boy from long ago...



Two women in my life..

My mother and the future mother of my children

My sadness and my Happiness


I want to let go of the first and put all my energy into the new.. A brand new start to life with Sarina

She's My Princess and i love her

No one has the right to deny us our love or tear us apart
Not even God..

PS* HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO ALL!!!

Doesn't matter whether you're muslim,christian,hindu or whatever!


We're united and we should celebrate as one!


Peace!

We lost a member of the family today.. One of the feathered kind..


*I was awakened from my slumber to the shouts of my father who asked me to run downstairs and look for the little blue birdie we keep as a pet. He had been washing the cages and the birdie flew outta the window.

I searched frantically despite my heavy eyes and tired body but to no avail. I looked all over and combed every area around my block but in the end, the little blue birdie could not be found. I had no heart to give up the search because by doing so, i would would seal his fate. After a while, i turned around and trudged back home with the awful weight of guilt in my heart. I felt like i left a comrade out to die in the battlefield.

When i got home, i noticed that his companion,a green lovebird, looked at me as if to say, 'Did you bring my friend home? Where is he?'

I would have burst into tears but my weariness got the better of me and i plodded off to my bed and went back to sleep.

I awoke much later, my tiredness still everpresent and the guilt still as heavy in my heart. I do know that it's not my fault but i feel that i could have made a difference if i had not given up..

Forgive me my friend


*Little Birdie,why did you go?
An open window you saw and away you flew
Into the world where freedom seems promised,
only to find that it comes with a price

Little Birdie,are you afraid?
All lost and alone,with no friend in sight
Where jaws of death await you or worse still,
Cruel childrens hands

Little Birdie,do you know you are missed?
Your partner is silent,sadness beats his heart
Your family longs to have you back,
so please fly back home



*Wherever you are, i hope God watches over you and brings you back to us

I miss the beautiful songs you sing

Holy Shit!!

The cough syrup i got from the doctor is supposed to make me sleepy but instead, i feel 'HIGH'

I was freakin pretending to be a transformer!!!!!


What in the Blue Hell!!!!!!


My head is spinning..

now i know why some people are druggies but this is something i ain't



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Good God!!


I realize that i've sent a text sms to my colleagues that said i'm Optimus Prime!

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DRUGS = BAD!!!




Neeraj is trying to keep me sane now




Sarina... i miss you



btw, i've found out that it's used as a recreational drug!

WHAT THE FUCK!!!!



http://en.wikipedia.org/wiki/Dextromethorphan



I'm keeping my hands clean off this shit! it's insane!

OooooooKAY!!!

I saw the doctor and i've been given some crazy meds!

I feel so light headed!

DAmn Doc! Your Cough Syrup is Wicked!

I just took 2 recommended dosages and it feels like i had my usual mix of coronas and heinekens!!!



I knocked into my bedroom door, i did pull ups on my front gate and i had a hard time switching on my toilet lights


Is this how a 'HIGH' from drugs is supposed to feel like?

I can live without it...



Anw, hope the cough syrup does what it is supposed to do.....

What i REALLY NEED IS.....





SARINA!!! RESCUE ME!!!

I miss my baby so much...

Super Ninja Attack CrossDressing Chimps From the Planet Of Flirtatious Dustmites

Oh My GOD!!!!!


I'm missing my baby sweets so damn bad


~I was having terrible pain from my fever yesterday and sarina came all the way down to pick me up from work and she sent me all the way home.

My fever is Nuts! I was so weak and in so much pain. I was really lucky not to have fallen down the escalator on the way back when i took a wrong step. It was simply horrid :(

The worst was that it felt awfully cold and my body felt like it had been used as a punching bag.. It was BAD!!


Anw, SArina took me all the way home and she took care of me all the way. She did all she could to comfort me and to ease my pain and God bless her for being such a wonderful person. I bought some soup for us to share as i had not eaten and she held on tightly to me as we made our way to my place. My darling waited patiently as i took a 'painful' shower and hobbled around the house, moaning in pain. I know it hurt her to watch me in so much pain and i felt really bad for it. I really didn;t want her to feel so down.

After we ate, she tucked me into bed and planted kisses on my lips and comforted me with warm hugs. I wished so hard that she could stay but my Princess had to leave. It was painful to say goodbye and my heart longed for her so badly.

As painful as it was to drag my body up from my bed, i did and i watched and waved to her from my window, my heart as heavy as stone. It hurt so much to see my baby leave. I miss her so much when she isn't around. Even as i type this post out, my heart longs for her.

For her touch, her warmth, her smile, her love.. I miss my Perfect Angel

*and Yes, i'm not afraid or ashamed to say that tears started streaking down my face as i typed out that sentence

You'll only understand how i feel when you are TRULY in love with someone who loves you with every fiber of their being. Someone whom you know you can count on to be there to pick you up when you fall and to comfort you. Someone who loves you and who is faithful to you. Someone whom you would sacrifice your life for and you know they'd do the same..

I found my soulmate in Sarina... No one is gonna tear us apart
I'm really glad that i took a chance with her and gave my heart to her. I trust her and i trust this relationship to last forever :)


*To sarina baby,

Thank you for all that you've brought into my life. We've taught each other many important life lessons and i'm thrilled to be in a relationship with someone who is incredibly smart :D (Hooooray for intelligent conversations!!)
You're heart is locked up tightly inside me and no one will ever be able to remove it. The only one who has the key, is you.

I gave you my heart and i know that you are guarding it fiercely like a Bear protecting a Pot of honey( HEy!! You don't wanna mess with a Hungry Bear aye??) hehehe

Sarina, I can't wait for the rest of our lives together. We have something truly unique and special

(Coincidental dreams on the same night and it happened TWICE plus 'reading' each other's minds! :P )


Whatever comes our way,be it good or bad, let's hold on tight to each other and fight for our happiness for if it's one thing that i'm very sure of, it's that i'll only be happy if i have YOU in my life


Here's to YOU, the Future Mummy of my little Monkey Monkeys :3



My heart's Forever Yours

Jason

There, i've gone and done it now :(

Pushed myself too hard and now i've fallen sick with a fever and sickening body pain. This is what you get when you have to work your ass off and have hardly the time to rest.

What's worse is that i had to clean up my whole room and that involved shifting the heavy mattress and bed frame plus all the other furniture. Stupid me! I hadn't eaten and my body was so weak yet i carried on and was almost rewarded with the mattress toppling on top of me. Laugh all you want at that, i don't care. Almost falling a few times and coughing my lungs out, today SUCKED!!


On top of that, i miss my wonderful baby girl terribly. She was so sad that i was sick that she cried and that realy hurt me :(
I wished so hard that she could be here to take the pain away but she was really busy today and couldn't come over. It's okay :D I know taht she's always thinking about me

YOu know, it's amazing to have found and fallen in love with someone who makes you smile and feel greatly loved. Someone who tries to be there to take your pain away and to pick you up when you fall. I've found her and i will NEVER let her go.
People say that nothing lasts forever but to me as long as you cherish and love each other faithfully through the good times and bad, Love willl never fade away



God bless my baby for all that she is :D


SARINA!!!! I LOVE YOUUUUUUUUUU!!!!!!!

JASON SUCKS!!!!!

Went out with Sarina Sweetie today to have a look at laptops in Funan. Found some poor dude's student visa on the floor(passed it to my dad when i got home cos he's a cop)

After we were done looking around, a sales promoter for some nail buffer pulled us aside and proceded to demonstrate his nail buffer prowess on me and my baby. He was clearly infatuated with Sarina and i found it extremely Funny :D He kept asking her questions like where she lived and what our relationship was..

The Dude even buffed my nails!!

After we left, i had a really good laugh :D

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OOhh!! i bought a thick book of horror stories for only a dollar at a thrift shoppie! Wheeeee!!



Baby and i had dinner at Subway before i sent her off :D


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Gosh!!!!


I miss my baby so freakin much!

It sucks so much to only see her once a week and i really wish that i could see her more often :(


My baby means the world to me and nothing will ever replace her!


She makes me happy and i'm glad that i found this wonderful Angel :D



SArina Baby, I LOVE YOU!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Damnit!!! My pc is going haywire!!!!


It's crazy and i can't transfer my stuff!!! :(


Anw.. I love Sarina baby!!!


WHEEEEEEEEEEEEE!!!!!


Took her to McRitchie and we fed the monkeys, took pics with them, fed fishes and turtles and spent a romantic evening under the stars!!



it was such a nice break from the regular routine :)

I was kinda sad that nature ain't the same anymore.
Concrete is replacing trees and by the time our kids grow up, there won't be anything left for them to enjoy.

Humans SUCK!!!

Anw, the day spent with Sarii Sweets was GREAT!!!

Awesome Fun!!!!


I MISS MY BABYYYYYYYYYY!!!!!!!















SArina!! Sarina!! Sarina!!!

Woohoooooooo!!! I love this Girl!!!!


:D


She's the BEST!!!!



Jason Sensation

Gosh!

It's been such a long time since i've updated my blog. I've been too busy with work and my medical and i hardly have the time to use my pc. What's worse is that my pc is giving some trouble :P

Here's a brief update on what's transpired between the last post until now.. Forgive me cos i've not enough time :(

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My baby love celebrated her 18th birthday last week(2/09/08) :D

Her friends planned a birthday surprise at a chalet(sanjay's grampie's place) for her and she had a shock when i appeared with a cake :D
The look on her face was priceless :D

I had told her earlier that i would be working and wouldn't be able to make it so it was a huge surprise when i showed up and she was really happy

ANW.


The chalet was awesome fun.

I had so much fun and it was really nice to meet the rest of her friends :)

There was dancing, a bbq, drinks and swimming!!! WHEEEEE!!



During the chalet, My baby and i bonded even more and whatever we talked about or the things that happened made us even closer than ever. We both learned that a lot of patience and understanding is needed for this relationship to blossom even more. I ain't gonna say much more cos it's between my sweetheart and me.

When it was time to leave, it hurt so much and i missed her terribly after i sent her off.



~A day after her birthday, i met up with my baby love to watch WALL E and it was such a super cute movie :D

We had lunch at Orange JUlius and then i surprised her with her birthday presents.




*NOT gonna tell you what they were :D


*Price is not a factor when it comes to my sweetheart. She has been amazing and she deserves everything good. There are times when i've not been the best boyfriend but she is patient with me and puts up with my nonsense. I think it's really hard to find someone like that*

MY BABY LOVE AND ME :D






~The following saturday, Sarii sweets brought me to Escape Theme PArk and we had a BLAST!!! It was my first time there and she made sure that i had fun.


I loved the Go KArts and the Inverter!! Super Fun and i really wanna go again :D

ps*Thanks to Jai for the free tickets


here are some pics...


AFTER THE VIKING RIDE>>>MY HAIR IS OFF THE CHAIN!!!!






WAITING IN LINE FOR THE GO KARTS>> MY HAIR STILL SUCKS!!!



IN THE FERRIS WHEEL AND HIGH ABOVE EVERYONE ELSE :D






~ The past few weeks has brought it's share of pain and happiness but one thing is for certain. Sarina and i are made for each other and nothing in this world or in heaven, can seperate us or tear us apart. I love this girl with a passion and won't take any shit from anyone. If you ain't happy about us being together then you can kiss my monkey ass!


Life is worth Living when you've found someone worth dying for. I found her and i'll cherish her forever


*SArina baby, thank you for the wonderful gift of being you. There are times when you drive me insane but the good you do outweighs the bad. In my eyes, you're the Best and Perfect girl for me. You're the most beautiful and amazing person and i'm proud to call you mine


Here's to FOREVER with you my darling


:D


Te Amo




Jason Sensation