I miss you...

Your Beautiful face,brown eyes that gaze at me, I miss you.
The sight of your hair,caressed by the wind, I miss you.
Fingers run through my hair as my head lays on your bosom, I miss you.
Passionate kisses and warm hugs shared, I miss you.

All dressed up and looking like a Princess, I miss you.
The way your voice sounds on the phone,I miss you.
The thoughtfulness of your actions,I miss you.
Your patience and understanding, I miss you.

Kind and sweet words that flow from your mouth, I miss you.
Laughter that is music to my ears and a smile so beautiful,i miss you.
Making me smile with your jokes and antics, I miss you.
Your many moments of being Miss Perfectionist, I miss you.

Wonderful massages that soothe my weary muscles, I miss you.
The way you eat your food so adorably, I miss you.
The cutest pouts whenever i tease you, I miss you.
Hands clasped tight as we march to our own beat, I miss you.

The joy of a child when we play games, I miss you.
Your great strength that's inside, I miss you.
Love that is so true and divine, I miss you
A day spent with you that is always gone so quickly, I miss you.



These are just 20 outta hundreds of reasons why i love you Sarina! I couldnt bear to be in a world without you. I'm so lucky to have someone so true and so beautiful in my life such as you. I will always love you with all my heart and soul. You are the Greatest! You are my Champ! You are my Best friend! You are my Partner! You are my Everything! I love you baby!!

Ps*i cant wait till i find myself in your arms again :)

Just sitting here,lost in my thoughts...

Yesterday marked the 19th month of being together with you and it really thrills me to no end. Since the first time that our eyes met till today,ive never regretted falling in love and being with you. Each moment with you is a blessing and i thank you for it my Princess. You've grown from strength to strength and i'm so damn Proud of you my love. It makes me happy when i see you achieve good results from your hard work, among many other great things you do. You're unconditional love for me is the Greatest gift i've ever been given and i'm so thankful for it baby.


Sometimes it feels like a dream when i'm with you. Your eyes and beauty captivate me and i feel the same way i felt when i first saw you, shy. You make me stumble,fumble and tumble like an idiot and yet it makes me feel happy when i see you laugh when those stuff happen.. gosh! :P

You know baby, there is this fear inside. A fear that this is Really just a dream and that i might wake up from it to find myself alone. It terrifies me more than any other fear i have. To ever lose you means i lose myself. It makes me sick in the stomach just thinking about it. I wish that you were here so that i can hold on to you just like a child does to its mother. I try so hard to be a better person for you. I just wanna make you completely happy my love. I may not be able to sing well but i can sure as hell write you songs and poems. I may not be able to be there whenever you are sad but i sure can make you laugh with the jokes that overflow from my mind. I may not be the Best looking chap in the world but I'm the Best looking in your eyes. I may not have the best body or the biggest muscles but i sure as heck have a BIG Heart! This heart beats for you and ONLY you. I love you Sarina Yassin!

You make me feel safe and feel better when the world is cold. You light my path when its dark and as cliched as it may be, you freakin COMPLETE me. Your Imperfections are Perfect in my eyes,ive said before. Those words are my heart and soul :)

I cant wait to see you again


I love You :)

In life, there are moments that make you learn more about who you are and what your purpose is on this earth. From the moment of your birth to the moment of your passing. Moments that bring great joy to you and immense sorrow too. Moments that forge your spirit with the steel of hope. Moments that can break you like a wrecking ball on a derelict building. Moments where you shine brighter than the stars in the sky and also the moments where your head hangs low in sadness or failure.

People come and go in and out of your life. Family,friends,colleagues,enemies and more. They bring experiences,laughter,smiles,tears,heartbreak and much more. The experiences that shape you as a person. The experiences that you hold dear and learn from to make yourself a better person. Each and every person,good or bad,an important part in the development of your character.

Love shows it's beautiful face and envelops you in its warmth. You know it's love when you can feel that something special in the depths of your heart. The special person whom you know wont fail you and who stands by you throughout the darkest storms and who shares your joy when the sun shines brightly in the blue skies. The person whom you learn from and who in turn learns from you. The soul that sing the joys of being in love with you and who's hand is always stretched out to pick you up whenever you fall. The hand that never strikes you when a mistake is made but forgives and gives you the strength to learn and move on. That hand that guides you along the road of life. The hand that is strong and protects you from the snares of a cruel world. The hand that belongs to the person who adores and worships you. The one who would give up his life to save yours



We grow up with ideals and traditions thrust into us. We are taught right and wrong and sometimes even the opposite. Right things as wrong and vice versa. Some of us follow it. Some of us despise it and then there are those who are smart enough to believe in what they know is right. Having a well trodden path in front of you may be fine for some but for others,it's not the case. Instead, they seek truth, justice and meaning in their lives. These people make their own paths for they know that the answers they seek are out there. They know that only by making their own path will life for them,then be worth living. They strive on despite the odds and the sacrifices that have to be made. They know that only through strength of spirit and determination can they fully achieve a fulfilling and happy life.



As we go about our lives,let us remind ourselves that we are the masters of our own destinies. No one else can write it for us. Seek the anwers that you are looking for and fight for what you believe in. Never give up even if things look bleak but instead soldier on.


Life is full of mysteries that are waiting to be uncovered so go out and find them :)

Tonight its very clear
As were both lying here
Theres so many things I want to say
I will always love you
I would never leave you alone

Sometimes I just forget
Say things I might regret
It breaks my heart to see you crying
I dont wanna lose you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youre dreaming of
Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Youll keep me standing tall
Youll help me through it all
Im always strong when youre beside me
I have always needed you
I could never make it alone

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youve been dreaming of
Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Just like a knight in shining armor
From a long time ago
Just in time I will save the day
Take you to my castle far away

I am a man who will fight for your honor
Ill be the hero youre dreaming of
Were gonna live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love

Well live forever
Knowing together that we
Did it all for the glory of love



Peter Cetera-Glory of love


The lyrics speak so much truth!

I was deeply saddened and angered when i heard from my baby about what her mum said today. Apparently, her mum asked her about my family and sarina proceded to tell her about them. My dad is a cop and my mum works in an italian restaurant. Sarina's mum then told her that my family isnt Good.

Its one thing to put me down with untrue things but its another if you put my family down. No one has the bloody right to do that and in all honesty, i lost a lot of respect for Sarina's mum. I never thought of her to say such vile things and it Disgusts me :(


I mean my family may not be well to do but they are good people. They are people of faith and they always believe in doing good to people,no matter who they are. I see them come home after a hard days work,earning honest money and i feel really bad for them. So to hear someone put them down for no reason is really too much and thank goodness, my temper is more toned down these days. It really isnt right at all. I really didnt think she would be that ridiculous


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Its hard for sarina..so damn hard


I feel so sorry for the poor girl cos it takes an enormous amount of strength to put up with all this,being in the middle and all. I hope that she can stay strong and make it through


If i lose her.... i lose myself

Random quotes(cos i miss you so bad)

*Life is so short, so fast the lone hours fly,
We ought to be together, you and I.
~Henry Alford, "You and I"



*Days of absence, sad and dreary,
Clothed in sorrow's dark array, -
Days of absence, I am weary;
She I love is far away.
~Jean-Jacques Rousseau



*What shall I do with all the days and hours
That must be counted ere I see thy face?
How shall I charm the interval that lowers
Between this time and that sweet time of grace?
~Frances Anne Kemble



*Love is missing someone whenever you're apart, but somehow feeling warm inside because you're close in heart. ~Kay Knudsen

This loneliness eats me from inside and i know that it does the same to you.

3 years apart from you is as good as being sent to prison. No kissing you,hugging you or any form of contact... Your promise to your mother

Heaven knows why she hates me so much when i was the one she liked the best among your friends and praised. I do not know whether she is being fed lies by someone else or in the most likeliest of cases, she just wants to protect you

******

As hard as all of this is, let us never give up on what we have and fight for our love. True love doesnt come around often and when it does, we should never let go of it. No one loves you as much as i do and you know that im always there for your through the Best of times and also through the worst of times. Im never going to give up on you or walk away. YOu are my Princess and i worship the very ground you walk upon.

They say that its wrong for two people from different religions to be together cos its wrong in God's eyes and all that hooplah. Does anyone in their right mind think that God wont accept us into heaven just because of that? As long as we are good people and live by good values, that is what matters. After all, God isnt spiteful, humans are.


My Princess,

I will always love you and i will never neglect you or cause you unhappiness. When there are tears on your face, i will comfort you when i'm there with you. I will make life wonderful and we'll live it to the fullest. I wont ever let you suffer and i will always be there to nurture you and to care for you. I will protect you from all the wickedness in the world and i would gladly give my life up for you if it means saving yours. I do this and a whole lot more because I LOVE YOU



Stay Strong my Princess and Dont let anyone or anything change your beliefs. Words are the most powerful tools and they can either MAKE or BREAK you. You are one of the smartest and strongest girls i know and i trust in you. I love you sarina






Take Good care

Sarina's mother found out about us today.. i dont know how she did but she found out


In a text that my baby sent me, her mum said that she(sarina's mum) Hates me and is convinced that im a person with bad character.She said that ive a hidden agenda and that one day or another,im going to leave sarina. She calls us two very different people and that i wont give my Sarina a happy life. She also accused me of controlling sarina...


It deeply hurts and saddens me to be accused of all these things and none of which are true. Ive never been a bad person and what 'agenda' would i have being with sarina? I love the dear girl with all my heart and ive always taught her to be a good person so how does that make my character bad? Control her? She has all the freedom she wants with me! The true reason why her parents dont approve of me is for being a roman catholic. Its really so stupid that two people from different religions are forbidden from being together. What does it matter as long as we are good people!

HAte me? that's a really harsh word..


Im going crazy right now but ive gotta be strong. I cant be weak cos if i let fear and sadness take over, this relationship is as good as done for



Sarina... I love you and i would never leave you.. You know that

No one else loves or will love you like i do and i worship the ground you walk upon

This hurts but i'll be strog


I miss you

Love is a wonderful thing

It makes your world go round and at the same time can bring you down.
There is infatuation and there is True love. Some of us are fortunate in it and others get the stick end off it. I am one of the lucky ones

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I met a wonderful girl on the 12th of February 2008 and i've never(and will never) regret choosing to be with her. It's gonna be a year with her in less than a months time and i swear upon my life that she is the BEST damn thing! Life and love has thrown us many challenges but we've always come out on top. Just goes to show how much the strength of this relationship actually is. A weaker one would have seen the couple give up on it and drown themselves in pain,accusations and negativity. SArina and myself have been a constant source of strength and encouragement for each other. Her love is soemthing i will never take for granted and i will NEVER let go of it


Nothing is going to be easy for us because her parents would never approve of her being with a catholic boy and i for one will never give up my identity. Despite all this, i will fight for this love to work out and i know that she will too. I will never love anyone the way that i love her and i'd give my life up for her. I've never had much growing up and i've never really had things easy. I've had to work my ass off for years and i will continue doing that for a better future. My reward is a happy,healthy and fulfilling life with my darling Sarina and NO FUCKING ONE has the right to deny me that. I will never find anyone like her and She will never find anyone who loves her as much as me

Tradition can be so damn stupid! Love should have NO boundaries! I know that some of you who are reading this are probably in a 'forbidden' relationship cos mum and dad don't approve of your partner or something like that. Know what, you can be a fucking coward and give up on what you have and be a puppet with no life of it's own OR you could stand up and fight for your happiness. If they truly loved you, they'd only want happiness for you.

Fight! Fight! Fight!

Don't EVER give up! One life to live the way you want my friends...

The beaten path or one that you make?

Quiter or a Winner? The choice is yours...


I know what i am and God help anyone who tries to stop us or wish ill on us

I've never been a bad person and have always done as much good as i can. So to whoever is reading this, if you don't agree with what i say,i have nothing against you. I want nothing bad spoken about Sarina or myself

For our friends and those who know how happy we are, support us and give us your blessings




Jason

It has been a really long time since i've sat down to update my blog and i apologize to those of you who have been kept waiting for a new post.. You know who you are :D


I hope that i don't disappoint.. Here goes


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I want to talk about the ups and downs of love. All of us who has had or have the pleasure of being in love with someone has gone through the many highs and lows of a relationship. Some people fail to understand that no relationship is perfect and think that them being with someone else is going to make things better. They cheat, they lie and they end up with heartbreak. I feel sorry for these people who have this kind of mindset.


There are of course the exceptions. One such good example is my beautiful baby girl Sarina. We've had our share of ups and downs but no matter what, we still stick together as a team. We do fight, we do have arguments and all but at the end of the day,we both know how much we love each other



* This post is dedicated to my one true love.. Sarina




~Some of you may know that i'm a fan of the tv series The Simpsons. Now, most people categorize the show as a mindless half an hour of cartoon humour but in real fact, there is so much more to the show than that. There are life lessons to be learnt from it. From the characters to the plots, the show gives us plenty to think about as human beings

*There's the dad Homer Simpson, who despite all his slow wit and perpetual stumbling,bumbling and messing up, always tries to make things right(which he fails to most of the time)Homer is crude, overweight, incompetent, clumsy, and lazy(always seen scarfing down donuts and swigging beer) however, he is also fiercely devoted to his family and often show's his caring side

*There's Marge,the mum who is always overworked and under appreciated by her family. She tries to be perfect but she can't be all the time. She's well meaning and is the voice of reason in the family

*The most popular character in the show, Bart is mischievious, rebellious and has no regard for authority. He constantly enrages everyone in the household(especially homer who'd strangle him) He bullies his sister Lisa and often does things to hurt her.Despite all this, he loves her deeply and always apologizes when he goes too far. BArt is the wild rebel who we all secretly want to be from time to time

*Lisa Simpson is the smart one in the family and like her mum,often feels unappreciated in her family. She is morally righteous and would do anything to get her views across. She does have her flaws too as she gets emotional easily

*Maggie Simpson...not much to say :P

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I'm not going to list out all the characters in the show. That would be besides the point of this post. What i wanna say is that each and every one of us can relate to all these characters. There's a Homer,Marge,Bart etc in ALL of us. We as human beings are delicate creatures with many a flaw. When we fumble up something, give in to laziness, act boorish, that's the Homer part of us. When we try to be perfect but fail, that's the little Lisa in us. When we put people beneath us or abuse the power we have, that is us being Mr Burns(Homer's evil employer at the power plant) When we have sadness inside us but put on a smile and try to cheer all those around us,That right there is us being Krusty the Klown(something i'm familiar with)

There are many issues these characters deal with which are similar to what we ourselves experience in real life. No matter how much Homer messes up and angers all those around him(especially Marge) he still tries his best to make up for it. As for Marge, despite all that Homer does to hurt or annoy her, she still loves him greatly and sticks with him no matter what happens. This shows that true love can really conquer all

Bart hurts Lisa constantly with his mischief and selfishness and lisa often ends up hating bart and cries. In the end,bart learns his mistakes and out of love for his sister,apologizes. We often hurt the people we love without realizing it but when we do realize,we have to learn how to accept the blame for the wrong we did and apologize


You see,the Simpsons really do give us stuff to think about and to learn from. Who ever said watching cartoons was bad for you...


Eat my Shorts!!

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I hope that all of you get the point i'm trying to get across in this post


*To my baby, i'm sorry for all the times i;ve fucked up and for all the times you've messed up, i forgive you

This love we share is Incredible and i don't wanna be with anyone else but you.

Never let the negativity and the bad things ruin this relationship. We both have to be strong and not let ANYTHING affect the love we have for each other. The easiest thing to do in a relationship is to walk away and give up. We're BOTH stronger than that


Sarina darling, i love you very much

Thank you for being the wonderful girl that you are and for making this monkey a very happy one. Nothing compares to your true love baby

Thank You




Jason

The End of a Beautiful Getaway and back to a world of despair...

3 days and 2 nights..

So much love and joy in that short space of time. Being away from everyone and with my baby in my arms. It was wonderful and it felt so good. The wonderful warmth my baby brings to my soul makes all the pain go away.

She is my Angel and she watches over..




3 days of laughter,hugs,kisses and more. Smiling so hard when she does the cute little things she does. She's my Baby :D
She loves me dearly and i thank her for being the Best for me. She's Awesome

2 nights spent in each others arms. Dancing,Drinking and making more smiles

Humming to a tune together.. La La La.. :)

When weariness crept into our bones, we slept.. Our bodies snug close together





Alas 3 days and 2 nights went past so fast.. It was hard to leave
I wanted to spend more time in my baby's arms but i have to wait.
I miss her.. I love her so much





Back home to where the walls are cold..
The person i call mother driving me insane with hurt and false accusations

I snapped.. I yelled.. I hit myself hard... I'm sorry

What can i do to make you proud? You don't see the struggle i go through. You think that i'm lazy and good for nothing. How blind and ignorant can you be?
Everything that goes wrong is somehow my fault! WHY???
You always seem to have a bone to pick with me.. Go ahead.. I've got 206.. don't wear yourself out

What's happened to you? Where has my mother gone? The woman who once held a little boy with a mess of curly hair in her arms and sang him lullabies. The mother who would take that little boy out to the zoo and smile when he giggled in joy

Where did you go?

I miss you

I look into the mirror and i see not my face in tears but that of that little boy from long ago...



Two women in my life..

My mother and the future mother of my children

My sadness and my Happiness


I want to let go of the first and put all my energy into the new.. A brand new start to life with Sarina

She's My Princess and i love her

No one has the right to deny us our love or tear us apart
Not even God..

PS* HAPPY DEEPAVALI TO ALL!!!

Doesn't matter whether you're muslim,christian,hindu or whatever!


We're united and we should celebrate as one!


Peace!

We lost a member of the family today.. One of the feathered kind..


*I was awakened from my slumber to the shouts of my father who asked me to run downstairs and look for the little blue birdie we keep as a pet. He had been washing the cages and the birdie flew outta the window.

I searched frantically despite my heavy eyes and tired body but to no avail. I looked all over and combed every area around my block but in the end, the little blue birdie could not be found. I had no heart to give up the search because by doing so, i would would seal his fate. After a while, i turned around and trudged back home with the awful weight of guilt in my heart. I felt like i left a comrade out to die in the battlefield.

When i got home, i noticed that his companion,a green lovebird, looked at me as if to say, 'Did you bring my friend home? Where is he?'

I would have burst into tears but my weariness got the better of me and i plodded off to my bed and went back to sleep.

I awoke much later, my tiredness still everpresent and the guilt still as heavy in my heart. I do know that it's not my fault but i feel that i could have made a difference if i had not given up..

Forgive me my friend


*Little Birdie,why did you go?
An open window you saw and away you flew
Into the world where freedom seems promised,
only to find that it comes with a price

Little Birdie,are you afraid?
All lost and alone,with no friend in sight
Where jaws of death await you or worse still,
Cruel childrens hands

Little Birdie,do you know you are missed?
Your partner is silent,sadness beats his heart
Your family longs to have you back,
so please fly back home



*Wherever you are, i hope God watches over you and brings you back to us

I miss the beautiful songs you sing